Does anyone else find it interesting that we have not heard a word from Kelly in days?  I have noticed her status is online several times a day (meaning she's reading our posts) but has not said a word since suspicions were raised that perhaps she truely is acting in a criminal mannor towards her child.  I guess the experts are correct when they say the best way to rid your forum of an MBP person is to call them on the inconsistencies and discrepencies in their "story".  I continue to pray for dear little Mya, I hope that her life improves and she is free from permanent injury or harm.  No one ever wants to believe that their worst suspicions are true, but in this case it appears so.  Maybe all of us could remember Mya in our prayers, that she will be protected from harm, and that she may find a loving home where she can grown healthy and strong and reach her full potential. 

I guess as a final caution I would remind all that the best way to discourage MBP behavior is to confront the incredible and ignore the attempts to solicit sympathy, concern, advice, or even "chit chat" from a known MBP.  Thanks for listening.... may we continue on in our forum, a little wiser,and a little more informed. 

Thank you all for being the wonderful resource that infantreflux.org is, it is amazing to be part of a network of women (mostly) helping other women to overcome what is often the biggest obstacle thus far in their lives.  Everyone give your sweet little angels a big hug and kiss and wish the same for all babies, everywhere.   

Sincerely,  Tracy

First I will address everone.  We all have the right to say or feel what we want about anyone.  I have never sade anything to people when I truly knew they were clueless.  I have been around for a couple days but not responding for several reasons.  One I have been busy with info for attorney.  Also, my husband had read a couple responses and asked me why it mattered to me that these people were saying.  I told him that half the information we ever got was off this board and helped us in times of need.   Also, I told him I felt like I truly cared for these women and knew what they were going through.  In a letter that one mom wrote she said you post one line about Mya on your carepages but wrote about all the other kids.  First, I was adviced to not write on the pages at all and felt all my family that doesn't live near want to know that we saw her and she was happy.  Also, all those other KIDS are alot more to Matt and I than just kids. These kids and there parents are apart of my family.  I still talk to all of them and my extended family had meet most while visiting the hospital and couple even came back to my inlaws on a leave from hospital for a cook out. So for one that doesn't even know me to just imply that they are just kids makes me angry.  I know I have been hard headed and not willing to do some things, but I also know I did nothing to hurt Mya.  My 2 attorneys called yesterday and NO WHERE in any of Mya's medical records does it saw they are worring about me or my actions.  Yes I did refuse green beans, but I wish all of you could see Mya's bottom and vaginal area.  They have changed her formula and are feeding solids and she is blistered to know end.  My husband and I discussed this all weekend and there is NOTHING we can do.  We called attorney and he said there is basically nothing we can do.  We filed for a emergency hearing 3 weeks ago.  We still don't have a date for the emergency hearing. That is how slow the system works. Also its funny that my family doc who is so adament about the Munchausen that he is refusing to give a deposition. Why being a doctor and you think what you think would you not just give a deposition.  He had to be supenoed yesterday.  Also we had to open a case in ohio to get doctors over there to give depositions.  They are not wanting to participate either. WHY?  The one doc said he had gut feeling, wouldn't ya like to know how many previous gut feelings he had.  He is even more adament that he doesn't want to testify.  I would think if you believed a mom was hurting her baby you would step up and say what you saw.  Oh ya the doctor in Ohio NEVER even saw Mya for 1 sec.  She was in Playroom both days.  All this is documented.  This doctor in the records even says that Mya is in playroom and happy reported by staff. But in letter he wrote to state it says that Mya appears normal, pretty good guess since he never saw her.  There are many things Tracy that you don't know about .. I have my whole family and friends that are 100% behind me.  These are all people that have stayed in my house and I have stayed at theres and they have lived Mya's life with Matt and I.  Also I come to thes boards because I thought I could help others still.  I beet you didn't know that I sent over 300 packets of Thickener to a mom, no charge and I sent 8 cans of Neocate to a mom, no charge.  I do care about my daughter and others well being no matter what anyone thinks.  Think about this if you were in my spot.  You have no other children, you can't work because of charges pending, your husband works in another state(because Dr. Putnam told us many times we really needed to move to monitor her better) , what would you do with 24 hrs for months on end.  We can see Mya 1 hr a week and can't call or have anyother contact with her. We can't even call the case worker to see how she is doing during the week.  Trust me when I say I have researched, I go to chrch, neighborhood 40days of purpose prayer meetings and mow several lawns during the week.  All my friends work, family work so pretty much I am left to sit her and think about my child.  Sometimes I drive over to ohio to be with my husband at night.  I emailed people the yellow shirt thing because I thought it was touching.  I once made a comment that laughed and then I said Ha ha. For all of this I was critized as not thinking of my daughter.  There are days were if I try not to think about the situation I think I can make it through the day and if I start pondering on the subject I bet myself up for opening my mouth. If you guys were in my position you would be lost just as I am. I cry all the time and hardly leave house. So I know I personally am a good person. I didn't come back to the boards because I figured you all had your thoughts and concerns and who was I to try and fight for your friendship.  You people have no clue about me and my life as do I have no clue about your life.  But I do pray everynight for this board and the kids.  I will continue to do so. But I won't be back since there are several that have there opinions and I don't want them to be mad I am here instead of doing whatever they would be doing in my situation.  I do want to thank everyone because I have learned on this site and was very greatful at the time for the information.  Also I noticed that people that still had concerns about me wre visiting Mya's site.  I will be updating it on Fridays when we see her but it will be very limited  since I can't really put anything we see when we visit.  Just that we saw her and it was great.  Thanks Kelly

Kathleen,  I am sorry I said I did not want to take a test.  I really didn't but there was never a time that I wasn't going to take it.  Have you taken this test.  It is not anything one would ever think you would take.  If required me to match blocks to a picture, do math problems ,pronounce and give definitions.  Oh ya it cost $2500 after $20,000 has already been spent. Sorry but my family is not made of money and it hurts to see everyone dig in there retirement funds and second mortage there houses.  I am sure if this was you in my spot your head wouldn't be clear all the time.  I never said I wasn't guilty of anything.  I know my attitude and mouth got me in alot of trouble, but I can absolutely tell you I did nothing to hurt my child.  I don't care what you think because you have no clue about Mya's real problems.  I am wondering what you want me to say about Mya.  I love her more than anything in the world and I am doing above and beyond what is asked of me.  Like I said before , she is still sick with diarrhea.  Can you explain that?  She is losing weight? can you explain that.  Ya I can't explain that since she isn't in my care.  Seems the other docs can't either.  Could it be she is allergic to food, could it be the new formula.  I am not sure what you people want me to say about Mya, I have tried my best as a parent and I am sure there are things I have done that could have been different or I should have researched.  You will see when this goes to court the outcome.  If you guys truly believe I am guilty then why continue to read care pages if I am thought to be not truthful.  thanks kelly

To be fair to Kelly I just want to let you all know that I did contact her in private before I posted any of my suspicions on here.  My letter was completely ignored, it as if I had written a "hi there, how are you?" e-mail.  It was then that I realized for sure that there was a problem.  One of the most interesting things about this whole thing that I've noticed is that it's not what Kelly has "done" that has alerted anyone, it's her own words that are damning her right now.  No one can read her posts on Mya's care pages without coming away with that "something is NOT right here" feeling.  Mostly it's the absence of feeling or empathy towards her own child that is chilling.  Her confusion and outrage when she says " I am not sure what you people want me to say about Mya," is a good indication that the maternal feelings are just NOT there. How many of us wouldn't know what to say about our child if anyone questioned our care for them?  I know I for one could write an epistle about each and every one of my six children, impromptu. 

So here's the facts  (just the facts ma'am )  you may conclude what you like.  I would just like to remind everyone that discussing this is fine, that's what a forum is for, fueling anyone's need for attention is not good, and for some, negative attention is as good as anything.  I personally started this entire thread with the purpose of stopping "sympathy and empathy" posts, so that none of us would feel harmed when the deception was uncovered. 

I'll post this now, and put the "info" in asap, I lost this post once, and my fingers are tired, so I dare not reduce it to go get the "info" again!  lol

As always~  Tracy

This was sent 10/17/2005 at 4:07 pm