Claire,
I was wondering this morning how you were doing today. I’m sorry you’ve been having such a hard time with nursing. I appreciated reading all the comments from the other moms about their experiences and know that in the end it comes down to you doing what is best for you and for Kate.
I’d also like to encourage you to get in touch with a LC. I have seen three different LC’s with my two kiddos and want to also add the thought that if the LC you see doesn’t particularly help you out fully, you might try seeing another LC. Just like we change peds when it is not a good fit, you can also have a good fit or a not-so-good fit with an LC.
I also liked the idea of contacing LLL. Many of the LLL leaders will quickly arrange to visit you at your home and give you help and support and a shoulder to cry on (for free, too). They don’t have the medical training that an LC does, but LLL leaders know breastfeeding issues inside and out. And they probably know another reflux/OAL mom they can refer you to for local support. The LLL group I was going to (when Andrew was little and so sick with undiagnosed MFPI/reflux) was so helpful about listening and offering practical suggestions I hadn’t even thought of about ways to cope with life while also coping with a sick baby. Even though no one helped me pinpoint the food intolerance link, I still appreciated the true support I got from them.
I know there is not enough time in the day or an extra ounce of energy in your body right now to do anything at all other than survive. I wish we could all give you a hug in person, but I think all of us are giving you that hug over the Internet. 
Hang in there. Call me tomorrow (or even tonight) if you want to talk in person!
Dianne
