So we have an appointment with a pedi GI tomorrow, which I’m really excited about. Over the phone they asked for Dee’s symptoms and I told them everything. When I was done they said, “well, we think we can help you” and I just started crying.
In the meantime, we’re in hell. Delia has a cold now, as if the reflux wasn’t enough to keep her awake at night. She’s had several nights where she’s awake every half hour, and will only go back to sleep if she eats an ounce or so.
Anyway, so in the meantime my SO’s family is all, “I don’t know what you’re talking about, she’s not screaming, she’s so happy right now, she looks like she’s sleeping just fine, she doesn’t need a doctor, you’re overreacting, her sphincter muscle will close as she matures you just have to be patient, she doesn’t want to eat, she’s just playing” and I just want to SCREAM. You are NOT around my baby enough to make those kind of calls! Yeah, she’s having a good day today. That doesn’t negate the 5 bad days she’ll have for every good 1 day. Yeah, she’s sleeping now. But she’ll only sleep for another ten minutes, and she’s only been asleep for 10 minutes, so she’s not getting much sleep, is she? She’s not screaming? Wanna see what happens when you hold her? Because I guarantee that even though she’s 5 months, she’ll start screaming for mommy or daddy, because we’re the who comfort her enough to cope with the pain. You say she’s not hungry? See what happens when I take the bottle away from her? See how she starts crying until I give it to her again? See how she won’t eat if I’m holding her? Yeah, she turns her head away and spits it out of her mouth, but she IS hungry, you can tell because she CRIES when she’s not eating. I’m sorry that you can’t see it hurts her to eat. I left a Facebook status update about Delia’s pedi GI appointment getting moved from the 30th to Thursday and my SIL was all, “Well, I sure hope it’s beneficial” and I know that sounds inocuous or encouraging, but she doesn’t encourage. She expresses herself when she’s skeptical and thinks you’re wrong. Yeah, she’s a real positive person.
Ugh. I’m glad my family is at least vocally supportive, if not here to help out. We’re still pretty overwhelmed, and have very little time between baby and my older daughter, whom we are seeking ADHD medication for, as her behavior and focus issues are starting to affect her at daycare and preschool. Could be stress from having a baby with unresolved medical issues in the house, but it can’t hurt to try. I just hate the idea of telling my MIL we’re looking for meds for her. She was bugging me to find medication for #1 a year ago, and I staunchly refused. Just because MY daughter doesn’t fit into YOUR ideal of what a child should be doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with her!
Okay, I’m done now.
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we totally understand here and you can vent any time you need to! I do remember my sister on her cell phone calling me when I was at one of my lowest with Dylan and saying “maybe your not handling motherhood very well”….ARGHHHHHHHHHH, so anyway, I found this place and have gotten all the validation, help, and way more from the community here! Hang in there and know that you are doing great things for your baby and will get her to a much happier place soon!As for your older one, that is a tough decision. We did try our oldest on meds, and it actually made him very emotional and teary, so we didn’t last more than a week, but we also were very against it and then finally tried. Believe me if it had helped him focus and be more successful in his environments, I whole heartedly support it! You do what we have to in order to help our children be happy and successful whereever they are.Hang in there and know we are all here for you!!!!!!
