roller coaster ride

[Anonymous]

Just need to vent. Our baby was doing so well for an entire week (eating without discomfort and eating good volumes) and suddenly she had blood in her stool and is uncomfortable eating again. When you finally think you see the end of the road it comes back and bites you and you are back in the black hole

So frustrating

Nat

[Anonymous]

I’m right there with you. My son keeps having a “honeymoon” period when we change things, then gets worse again… He’s even worse now…we’re still trying to figure out what else we need to do.

[Anonymous]

What I remember of reflux, was a series of constant ups and downs. Eventually there becomes more ups, and fewer downs. Then almost no downs… Our situation was pretty tough and drawn out it seemed, but has been a memory for some time now. Just tonight Hailey (my refluxer who once hated all foods and liquids) told me that I’m the best cook in the world… Hang in there! I swear that it will pass even when you think it never will. HUGS.

[Anonymous]

Need to vent again today, Chloe is not eating well again today. When will this end? I never feel like I can enjoy the good days as I am always expecting bad days to arrive soon.

I am waiting for this to become a distant memory but I cannot even see the light at the end of the tunnel. Just want to cry but that does not help with any of the issues at hand.

[Anonymous]

Just wanted to send you cyber hugs. Every time Sloane has a low intake or hard day I just feel so defeated. I told my DH that it feels like my days are defined by how well she does. I get so paranoid about her intakes and if she is gaining weight. It feels so hard to relax and just enjoy my child at times. I am sorry any of us feel like we are in this boat.

[Anonymous]

Thanks for the note, its like I could have written it myself

Nat

[Anonymous]

Hi Ladies,

I PROMISE, it will end, and you will be here on the other side helping the moms that are just starting out with this horrible time, but once it passes, it becomes a memory and there are lots more good times to cherish. I just remember being back there and thinking “this is never going to end” , “this is my life now and it will never get better”, etc…..and I was even more upset when my friends or family were having these babies that they thouroughly enjoyed and I was left feeling even more helpless….

I know, sounds awful, but I think I was in a very bad place…I can tell you now though, I enjoy my boys so much that I find humor in them every day and could not go a day without a hug or kiss from them! I feel like we have such a close bond because of the difficult beginning and I can not imagine changing anything because it brought us to where we are today. I know my sister loves her children dearly, but I think that my bond with the boys is just a bit different, and I really cherish that.

Hang in there!!!! The days will get better!!! Nat, I noticed your baby is just around 5 months and months 4-6 were the WORST as the baby was developing, teething, growing so much in that time, but at 7 months, it did get MUCH easier, so better times I hope are right around the corner! Hang in there Michele, you are not far behind!

Hugs, ladies, and please vent ANYTIME!

Ann Marie

[Anonymous]

Thanks for note. Another bad day today. She has not eaten in 7 hours!!! and is still refusing. Oh when will it end

[Anonymous]

Nat,

I am so sorry. The anxiety is so horrible to go through. I can imagine how you must be feeling. Breathe mama, cry if you have to. It is just agony to imagine how they must be feeling and to know that something that is supposed to be enjoyable like eating feels so bad that they want nothing to do with it.

Thinking of you and hoping that by the time you read this that Chloe has taken something and is feeling better.

[Anonymous]

Need to vent again, in the last two weeks things seems to be going backwards instead of getting better. I guess we will be going to the Ped GI next week again to see if there is anything she can do. So frustrating!

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